Paullina Simons famous quotes

I love you breathlessly, my amazing man.
-- Paullina Simons

#Love You #Men #Amazing Man

There are some battles, no matter how much you don’t want to fight them, that you just have to fight. That are worth giving your life for.
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#Fighting #Giving #Battle

Love is when he is hungry and you feed him. Love is knowing when he is hungry.
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#Love Is #Knowing #Hungry

The days of idealism had gone. Only life was left.
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#Gone #Idealism

Oh Alexander," she said, "what do you want from me..." "Everything!" he whispered fiercely.
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#Want #Said

Tatiana, I love you. Do you hear me? I love you like I’ve never loved anyone in my whole life. Now, get up. For me, Tatia. For me, please get up and go take care of your sister. Go on. And I’ll take care of you.” His lips kissed her cheek.
-- Paullina Simons

#Love You #Goes On #Care

Shura...are you...in love with me?" "Turn to me," Alexander said. She turned. "Tatia, I worship you. I'm crazy in love with you. I want you to marry me.
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#Crazy #Love You #Want

He is just protective over me-” “Not protective, Tania. Consumed.
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#Protective

The power you have over someone who loves you is greater than any other power you'll ever have.
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#Love You

Alexander to Tatiana: I love you as much as it is possible for a man to love a woman.
-- Paullina Simons

#Love You #Men

Whenever you're unsure of yourself, whenever you're in doubt, ask yourself three questions. What do you believe in? What do you hope for? but most important, ask yourself, what do you love?
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#Believe #Doubt #Important

Everything comes at a price. Everthing in your life. The question you have to ask yourself is, what price are you willing to pay?
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#Pay #Willing

Ask yourself these three questions, Tatiana Metanova, and you will know who you are. Ask: what do you believe in? What do you hope for? But most important - ask: what do you love? ... I know who I am, she thought, taking his hand and turning to the altar. I am Tatiana. And I believe in, and hope for, and love Alexander for life.
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#Believe #Who I Am #Hands

If I can live through this, he thought, I can live through anything. If I can live through this, I WILL live through anything.
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And that's my point: all great things worth having require great sacrifice worth giving.
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#Sacrifice #Giving #Great Things

Tania, there is so much still ahead of you. Be patient with life
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#Be Patient #Patient #Stills

This is days and days and months and years and all the minutes in between, just you me.
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#Years #Months #Minutes

He sent you to redeem me, to comfort me, and to heal me—and that’s just so far,” he added with a smile.
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#Comfort #Heal

Where was he, her Alexander, of once? Was he truly gone? The Alexander of the Summer Garden, of their first Lazarevo days, of the hat in his hands, white toothed, peaceful, laughing, languid, stunning Alexander, had he been left far behind? Well, Tatiana supposed that was only right. For Alexander believed his Tatiana of once was gone, too. The swimming child Tatiana of the Luga, of the Neva, of the River Kama. Perhaps on the surface they were still in their twenties, but their hearts were old.
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#Summer #Children #Heart

Tania, last time in Morozovo, I let you go, but not this time. This time we live together or we die together.
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#Together #Lasts #Letting You Go

We can’t forget that I owe you my life.” She gazed at him. “We can’t forget that I belong to you.” “I like that sound of that,” Alexander said, hugging her tighter.
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#Hug #Sound #Forget

War was the ultimate chaos, a pounding, soul-destroying snarl, ending in blown-apart men lying unburied on the cold earth. There was nothing more cosmically chaotic than war.
-- Paullina Simons

#Lying #War #Men

Daughters are supposed to be friends to their mothers in their old age.
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#Daughter #Mother #Age

You have to keep your audience in your mind; if you're writing stuff that you know nobody's going to care about then you should rethink what you're doing!
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#Writing #Mind #Care

With my writing, because I live it, I have to be consumed by it, and that means you have to forget your other life, which is constantly pulling you from your work.
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#Mean #Writing #Forget

There is a very definite Russian heart in me; that never dies. I think you're born and you live your life with it and you die with it. I'm very much an American - my books tend to be about American things, but inside there's that sort of tortured, long-suffering, aching, constantly analysing Russian soul underneath the happy American exterior.
-- Paullina Simons

#Book #Heart #Thinking

I have a certain sensibility that I bring to my writing that comes from knowing two things: what I as a reader like to read, and what as a writer I am capable of. I know my own limits. I know there are things I cannot do.
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#Writing #Two #Knowing

When I was growing up, 'Anna Karenina' was one of my favourite books.
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#Growing Up #Book #Favourite

I wish I could spend six years writing one novel.
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#Writing #Years #Wish

I tend to be a great optimist when it comes to the United States and the American way of life, I think precisely because I wasn't born into it.
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#Thinking #Way #United States

Falling in love with you in the Summer Garden in the white nights in Leningrad is the moment that propels me through life.
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#Summer #Falling In Love #Love You

You are my hand grenade, my artillery fire. You have replaced my heart with yourself.
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#Heart #Hands #Fire

And then, because she was Tatiana and because she couldn’t help herself, and because he wouldn’t have it any other way, she ran to him and was in his arms.
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#Arms #Way #Helping

Thank you," she whispered, "for keeping yourself alive, soldier." "You're welcome," he whispered back.
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#Soldier #Alive #Welcome

Tania,” he whispers, “promise me you won’t forget me when I die.” “You won’t die, soldier,” she says. “You won’t die. Live! Live on, breathe on, claw onto life, and do not let go. Promise me you will live for me, and I promise you, when you’re done, I will be waiting for you.” She is sobbing. “Whenever you’re done, Alexander, I will be here, waiting for you.
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#Letting Go #Waiting #Soldier

Shura, I’m yours. You may not like it today, you may not want it tonight, you may wish for it all to be different now, but it remains, and I remain, as always, only yours. Nothing can change that. Not your wrath, your fists, your body or your death.
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#Wrath #Wish #Different

Dear God, Tatiana prayed in bed that night, turning to the wall and pulling the white sheet and the thin brown blanket over herself. If You are there somewhere, please teach me how to hide what I never knew how to show.
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#Wall #Night #White

Please stop looking at me, she thought, afraid of his eyes and terrified of her own heart.
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#Eye #Heart #His Eyes

Tatiana: "Why did we spend two days fighting when we could have been doing this?" Alexander: "That wasn't fighting, Tatiana. That was foreplay.
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#Fighting #Two

We walk alone through this world, but if we're lucky, we have a moment of belonging to something, to someone, that sustains us through a lifetime of loneliness.
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#Loneliness #Lucky #World

I'm not hungry," Alexander whispered. "I'm famished. Watch out for me. Now, don't make a single sound," he said, moving on top of her. "Tania, God....I'll cover your mouth, just like this, and you hold on to me, just like this, and I'm going to-just like this-
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#Moving #Mouths #Sound

Tatiana said. "Go on with Dasha. She is right for you. She is a woman and I'm-" "Blind!", Alexander exclaimed. Tatiana stood, desolately failing in the battle of her heart. "Oh, Alexander. What do you want from me..." "Everything", he whispered fiercely.
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#Heart #Battle #Goes On

He stared at her fists and at her face and said with upset incredulity, "You promised me you would forgive me-" "Forgive you,"Tatiana hissed through her teeth, tears streaming down her face, "for your brave and indifferent face, Alexander!" She groaned in pain. "Not for your brave and indifferent heart.
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#Pain #Heart #Brave

A bus came. The soldier turned away from her and walked toward it. Tatiana watched him. Even his walk was from another world; the step was too sure, the stride too long, yet somehow it all seemed right, looked right, felt right. It was like stumbling on a book you thought you had lost. Ah, yes, there it is.
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#Book #Long #Soldier

Not bombs nor my broken heart can take away from me walking barefoot with you in jasmine June through the Field of Mars.
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#Heart #June #Broken

Will you remember that? Anywhere you are, if you can look up and find Perseus in the sky, find that smile, and hear the galactic wind whisper your name, you'll know that it's me, calling for you... calling you back to Lazarevo. (Alexander)
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#Wind #Sky #Names

Alexander knew that before he had light instead of darkness, he had to deserve light instead of darkness.
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#Light #Darkness #Deserve

Each day brought just another minute of the things they could not leave behind. Jane Barrington sitting on the train coming back to Leningrad from Moscow, holding on to her son, knowing she had failed him, crying for Alexander, wanting another drink, and Harold, in his prison cell, crying for Alexander, and Yuri Stepanov on his stomach in the mud in Finland, crying for Alexander, and Dasha in the truck, on the Ladoga ice, crying for Alexander, and Tatiana on her knees in the Finland marsh, screaming for Alexander, and Anthony, alone with his nightmares, crying for his father.
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#Father #Son #Cells

I love you. I'm blind for you, wild for you. Sick with you. I told you that our first night together when I asked you to marry me, I am telling you now. Everything that's happened to us, everything, is because I crossed the street for you. I worship you. You know that through and through...
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#Love You #Night #Sick

Lazarevo drips you into my soul, dawn drop by moonlight drop from the river Kama. When you look for me, look for me there, because that's where I'll be all the days of my life.
-- Paullina Simons

#Rivers #Soul #Dawn

Good-bye, my moonsong and my breath, my white nights and golden days, my fresh water and my fire. Good-bye, and may you find a better life, find comfort again and your breathless smile, and when your beloved face lights up once more at the Western sunrise, be sure what I felt for you was not in vain. Good-bye and have faith, my Tatiana.
-- Paullina Simons

#Night #Light #Bye

I'm going to die with Alexander's hand on my face, Tatiana thought. That is not a bad way to die. I cannot move. I can't get up. Just can't. She closed her eyes and felt herself drifting. Through the haze in front of her she heard Alexander's voice. "Tatiana, I love you. Do you hear me? I love you like I've never loved anyone in my whole life. Now, get up. For me, Tatia. For me, please get up and go take care of your sister. Go on. And I'll take care of you.
-- Paullina Simons

#Moving #Love You #Eye

Alexander, were you looking for me?" "All my life.
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Courage, Alexander..... Courage, Tatiana
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Tatia: I think its too big to fit
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#Thinking #Fit #Bigs

Alexander tilted his head and kissed her deeply on the lips. He let go of her hands, and she wrapped her arms around his neck, pressing herself against him. They kissed as if in a fever... they kissed as if the breath were leaving their bodies.
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#Letting Go #Hands #Leaving

You will find a way to live without me. You will find a way to live for both of us,' Alexander said to Tatiana as the swelling Kama River flowed from the Ural Mountains through a pine village named Lazarevo, once when they were in love, and young.
-- Paullina Simons

#Rivers #Mountain #Way

Here, take this, she would say, take this, and tell me where he is. Tell me whether he's dead or alive, so I can walk as his widow or his wife. No one would, or could, tell her, and so she continued to cook, and to learn new things all the while searching for an answer among the outcasts. The way he carried his body, the way he walked in my life, Tatiana thought, declared that he was the only man I had ever loved, and he knew it. And until I was alone without him, I thought it was all worth it.
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#Men #Wife #Widows

Oh,to be walking through Leningrad white night after white night, the dawn to dusk all smelting together like platinum ore, Tatiana thought, turning away to the wall, again to the wall, the wall, as ever. Alexander, my nights, my days, my every thought. You will fall away from me in just a while, won't you, and I'll be whole again, and I will go on and feel for someone else, the way everyone does. But my innocence is forever gone.
-- Paullina Simons

#Wall #Fall #Night

Ask yourself these three questions, Tatiana Metanova, and you will know who you are. Ask: What do believe in? What do you hope for? What do you love?
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#Believe #Three #Who You Are

Alexander, you broke my heart. But for carrying me on your back, for pulling my dying sled, for giving me your last bread, for the body you destroyed for me, for the son you have given me, for the twenty-nine days we lived like Red Birds of Paradise, for all our Naples sands and Napa wines, for all the days you have been my first and last breath, for Orbeli- I will forgive you.
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#Heart #Wine #Son

Tatiana and the soldier were having a silence
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#Silence #Soldier

Memory - that fiend, that cruel enemy of comfort.
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#Memories #Enemy #Comfort

Though much is taken, much abides; and though we are not now that strength which in old days moved earth and heaven, that which we are, we are— Unyielding.
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#Inspirational #Taken #Heaven

Up on the roof Tatiana thought about the evening minute, the minute she used to walk out the factory doors, turn her head to the left even before her body turned, and look for his face. The evening minute as she hurried down the street, her happiness curling her mouth upward to the white sky, the red wings speeding her to him, to look up at him and smile.
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#Doors #Sky #Wings

Tatiana had imagined her Alexander since she was a child, before she believed that someone like him was even possible. When she was a little girl, she dreamed of a fine world in which a good man walked its winding roads, perhaps somewhere in his wandering soul searching for her.
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#Girl #Children #Men

If there is God, I thought...Please some day let me make love to this girl while she wears that dress." "Oh..." "Tatiasha...isn't it nice to know there is a God?
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#Girl #Nice #Making Love

I'll take your breath any way you give it to me, Shura.
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#Giving #Way

Please don't die," she whispered. "I don't think I can bury you. I already buried everyone else." "How can I die," Alexander said, his voice breaking, "when you have poured your immortal blood into me?
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#Thinking #Voice #Blood

In Alexander's life there was one thread that could not be broken by death, by distance, by time, by war. Could not be broken. As long as I am in the world, she said with her breath and her body, as long as I am, you are permanent, soldier.
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#Distance #War #Broken

I was blinded by stupidity for a brief moment in our life, for a flicker in the eternity in which you and I live, and I stumbled.
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#Stupidity #Moments #Eternity

....and when Tatiana lifted her glistening eyes to him, Alexander was looking down at her with his I’ll-get-on-the-bus-for-you-anytime face.
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#Eye #Faces #Gorgeous

When Tatiana looked up from her ice cream, she saw a soldier staring at her from across the street.
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#Ice #Soldier #Saws

I know that sometimes the things we carry become too much for us. We are burned down, but somehow we have to pick ourselves up and keep going
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#Too Much #Sometimes #Burned

We thought the hard part was over—but we were wrong. Living is the hardest part. Figuring out how to live your life when you’re all busted up inside and out—there is nothing harder.
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#Live Your Life #Busted #Harder

Alexander smoked and watched her from his tree stump bench. What are you doing? she would ask him. Nothing, he would reply. Nothing but growing my pain into madness.
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#Pain #Tree #Growing

Some words were like that. Whole lives attached to them. Ghosts and lives and ecstasy and sorrow.
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#Sorrow #Ghost #Ecstasy

Do you see the Field of Mars, where I walked next to my bride in her white wedding dress, with red sandals in her hands, when we were kids?” “I see it well.” “We spent all our days afraid it was too good to be true, Tatiana,” said Alexander. “We were always afraid all we had was a borrowed five minutes from now.” Her hands went on his face. “That’s all any of us ever has, my love,” she said. “And it all flies by.” “Yes,” he said, looking at her, at the desert, covered coral and yellow with golden eye and globe mallow. “But what a five minutes it’s been.
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#Kids #Eye #Hands

Open your eyes, soldier,” Tatiana said fondly, caressing his face.“Are you hungry?” “I was hungry,” Alexander said. “But you fed me.” His body was shaking underneath his sheet.
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#Eye #Soldier #Faces

They had no past. They had no future. They just were.
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#Past

But on that sunlit Sunday, Alexander knew nothing, thought nothing, imagined nothing. He forgot Dimitri and war and the Soviet Union and escape plans, and even America, and crossed the street for Tatiana Metanova.
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#War #Sunday #America

He came over in long pur­pose­ful strides, sat at the edge of her bed, and in a ten­der, pos­ses­sive ges­ture wiped the lip­stick off her lips. “What is that?” he asked. “All the other girls wear it,” Ta­tiana said, quickly wip­ing her mouth, breath­less at the sight of him. “In­clud­ing Dasha.” “Well, I don’t want you to have any­thing on your lovely face,” he said, stroking her cheeks. “God knows, you don’t need it.
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#Girl #Sight #Long

I want you to know that should something happen to me, don’t worry about my body. My soul isn’t going to return to it, nor to God. It’s flying straight to you, where it knows it can find you, in Lazarevo. I want to be neither with kings nor heroes, but with the queen of Lake Ilmen.
-- Paullina Simons

#Queens #Kings #Hero

Courage, Alexan­der,” she whis­pered. “Courage, Ta­tiana.
-- Paullina Simons

The sunshine filtered in through the billowing white curtains. Tatiana knew there would be only an instant, a brief flicker of time that bathed her with the possibilities of the day. In a moment it would all be gone. And in a moment it was. Still...that sun streaking through the room, the distant rumble of buses through the open window, the slight wind. This was the part of Sunday that Tatiana loved most: the beginning.
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#Sunday #Sunshine #Wind

Tatiana...you and I had only one moment..." said Alexander. "A single moment in time, in your time and mine...one instant, when another life could have still been possible." He kissed her lips. "Do you know what I'm talking about?" When Tatiana looked up from her ice cream, she saw a soldier staring at her from across the street. "I know that moment," whispered Tatiana.
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#Talking #Ice #Soldier

Awash in a flood of hostility and despair, they battled and railed and shattered their bodies on one another, unable to find one strand, one sobering swallow of solace.
-- Paullina Simons

#Despair #Body #Shattered

Here I am, your one man circus freak show, having bled out for mother Russia, having desperately tried to get to you, now on top of you with this scourge marks, and you, who used to love me, who was sympathized, internalized, normalized everything, you are not allowed to turn away from me....this is what I am going to look like until the day I die. I can't get any peace from you ever unless you find away to make peace with this. Make peace with me. Or let me go for good.
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#Mother #Men #Russia

We’ll meet again in Lvov, my love and I…” Tatiana hums, eating her ice cream, in our Leningrad, in jasmine June, near Fontanka, the Neva, the Summer Garden, where we are forever young.
-- Paullina Simons

#Summer #Garden #Ice

All good things come to those who wait.
-- Paullina Simons

#Waiting #Good Things

Live as if you have faith,” she said, “and faith shall be given to you.
-- Paullina Simons

#Have Faith #Given #Said

Love is, to be loved,” said Alexander, “in return.
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#Love Is #Return #Said

Tatiana realized she was too young to hide well what was in her heart but old enough to know that her heart was in her eyes.
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#Eye #Heart #Enough

I don't want this life to end," said Alexander. "The good, the bad, the everything, the very old, to ever end.
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#Want #This Life #Said

You have amazing gifts. Don't squander them. Don't give them out meaninglessly, don't abuse them, don't take them for granted. You are the weapon you carry with you till the day you die. -Tatiana and Alexander
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#Giving #Abuse #Weapons